It's a new day, and a new week. I'm going to try to have a week that I can feel really good about. I spent this weekend feeling really down, and last night was literally the pits. Today I feel wrung out, and ready for a fresh perspective. I'm going to eat fresh healthy foods, I'm going to exercise and get some fresh air. And I'm going to work my a** off to get my current draft of my proposal done before Sept. starts. Which I realize is Wednesday, but I'm almost done - so it's doable.
Anyway, I want to feel good about all the decisions I make, and I want to make the right choices in life. I have always been a person who likes to have a plan and know what is going to happen in the future - and right now that is virtually impossible. It is stressing me out. I keep telling myself to simply take it one day at a time and make each day as good as it can be, but it is not easy.
Today I will ride my bike to campus, and help out with a seminar that the grad students are holding. Then I'll spend the next couple of hours finishing my homework for class. When I get home, I'll figure out a menu for the week, and when the Oak man gets home I'll leave and get groceries. I'll make a quick healthy dinner and go to bed early ready to have a super productive day tomorrow. I will not think about the horrible conversation that I had last night, or my feelings of failure or nurse this depression any further. Each day I will do something to work towards my goal of finishing my degree program by May. Each day I will get my self a little bit further towards that goal. And each day I'm going to be kind to myself by taking care of my body and nourishing my brain with positive thoughts. Okay.