Unfortunately I missed practice this morning because the mister insisted that I stay up very late discussing things. Is it bad that I just kept thinking, "can we just drop this so I can go to bed?" Nothing was resolved anyway, more hurt feelings, more drama. I just don't need this right now. I have a busy week, today I meet with the Grawmeyer award winner for a grad student breakfast, then go to his talk. This evening I get to make a pitch to the PTA of SG's school for a school garden! Tomorrow I have to leave super early to go to Indianapolis to meet with another great scientist and see her talk. I'm super excited about her work, and secretly hope that I could get a post-doc with her. She's at Northwestern and does really interesting imaging work. Then the husband leaves on Thursday for four days to go to North Carolina for a tree climbing competition. Although that leaves me as the sole child-care provider (and I just realized that also means that I can't go to yoga class - shit!) But I'm relieved nonetheless. I need a break from the problems. This way my evenings can be spent reading in peace instead of fighting about who knows what. Well, I guess as far as class goes, there's none tomorrow, then I can go Thursday morning, then miss Friday, then there's no class on Saturday, and maybe I can work out a way to get there on Sunday. It's times like this that having grandparents in town would be really nice. Maybe SG could sleep over at someone's house Saturday night. I don't know. Definitely makes me think twice about being a single mom. Sometimes all the freedom and peace sounds nice, then when I think about the logistics of it all - I really don't know how women do it! And for people who aren't married that are reading this, don't be horrified, married life doesn't always consist of butterflies and flowers. It's a long haul. And I've always been a firm believer that feelings are valid, no matter what those feelings are. I just wish that I was in control of those feelings, instead of having them influenced by someone else! This is an absolutely beautiful week, there are flowers exploding everywhere, I got to do some gardening yesterday, I get to ride my bike to campus... all of these fun things to do, we shouldn't be fighting!! I shouldn't be spending my day worrying about these things. Anyway, it's time to get to school -- I'm going to try to enjoy my day despite all of this crap.